The tendrils of trauma coil themselves around your inner world like a snake and constrict so tightly, the lack of breath causes loss of clarity in the structures of your life. What you think you see, isn’t real, and what’s not real, crumbles.
The issue becomes the fact that you can’t see them to begin with, and you won’t feel them until they’re too tight. Only then will you realize the peril you face, should you deny their release.
This is where darkness looms and thoughts droop to the lowest dimensions, in the depths of despair to hopelessness. This is not a bad a place to be, unless you believe it is. And even then, that doesn’t make it so.
It is in the shadows, that light is born, for eventually you will adjust to the dark and be used to it, comforted by it and then ready to share what you learned from it.
Look to the stars …
In order to shine, their must be enough time devoted to the opposite of joy. Pain is inevitable in life, not a right to numb.
One cannot be seen, if one is not ready to burn. It’s hot under the bright light and one can roast instantly if one does not have the ability to retreat back to the shadows at will to recoup.
If food is fuel, thoughts are more.
Not just what you eat …
Negative people are just as toxic as the crappy foods we think are good for us. Being nice isn’t a precursor to your happiness, and maybe the opposite. Nice is cancerous because being nice, and nice people, put their needs aside to be nice, creating discord within themselves for violating their own boundaries in order to please.
After awhile, left unattended, their presence becomes acceptable to fulfill short term needs, because you’ve allowed them to be. Little by little, they inched their way closer like death by a thousand paper cuts. Not enough to hurt too bad, until you’ve bled out.
This creates our long term problems, multiped by avoiding the conflict earlier. Losing your energy to nice people is the same as a severed artery, leaking what is yours makes us incapacitated, or dead.
Open those peepers …
Are you surrounded by people who look to lift you when you’re down, or crush you when you’re up?
If it’s both, maybe it isn’t them. Maybe they hang around because they’re being allowed to choose the course of your life, good or bad.
Lack of vision happens amidst chaos and loss of trust, making it easy to be pulled back to expectations other than your own, by the words of those very same people when we seek assurance.
Just not ours …
For some reason most people believe what they want is ‘out there’, outside of themselves somewhere. They’re so convinced that they forget how they could possibly come to that conclusion.
Perhaps it’s because they have been severed from their bodies emotionally. They don’t feel what’s going on inside of them, they are only battered by what’s going on outside of them, allowing it to dictate their state.
They’re always searching, looking, and stumbling back to the same conclusion – it’s still out there somewhere, maybe, but definitely not inside because nobody has had the courage to help them feel it (themselves included).
Here’s hoping …
Fingers crossed that one day all the things we didn’t want to get to, will magically get to us. Somehow we’ll be whole without being required to examine how, right?
It totally makes sense that we’ll get all we can out of life without getting all we can out of ourselves first.
Would you be able to feel it anyway?
It’s too late …
Denying parts of yourself fractures your spirit and leaves you vulnerable to attacks that will feel foreign, and yet remain domestic. You’ll think the invader is ‘out there’ when somebody says something, but it will be you who controls the reaction, on all levels, conscious or not.
Nobody can give you that which you seek, especially when it’s not something to give, because what you seek is also seeking you, so maybe, just hold space and do nothing.
When you stop seeking, you will be found, and the healing can begin.
You weren’t taught that either?
There are many potholes on the road of life.
The best way out of a hole is to stop shoveling, because you’re probably the one digging it.
The greatest life has to offer, is also on the same road, just look up.
What holes do you want filled up? Share them below!